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Pimpin’ With Diane

Hangin' with my girl. Pimpin'. The usual.

October 28, 2010   1 Comment

A Little Pricey

Yesterday, I took a stroll around the Lower East Side. Well, rather, I walked out of the dorms and got myself lost. But in getting lost, I found a lot more than I had expected.

I was on the lookout for E Houston St, and instead found Chinatown and Fuji-town, a few solemn synagogues, a few empty lots and a lot of ghosts. I took Richard Price’s advice, and looked up at all the history. Right now, if I look out my window, I see high-rise tenements with “For Sale” signs in Chinese, English, and who knows what. I see advertisements for leases, coca-cola and others amid weather-beaten bricks.

So naturally, my mind raced back to the reading. Richard Price’s quirky, sarcastic face popped up right in to my consciousness. His head floated around in my head as he pointed out all those little things I had never seen before, and soon I saw myself pointing them out to the friend I was with as well.

His face and advice are unforgettable to me. Not just because his hilarious story resonates so close to home, but for other reasons. The tone of his voice and his overall demeanor fascinated me. He seemed so familiar to me: a coach, a dad, a neighbor. Something about him was so odd to me; maybe it was how alike he was to my own father (in a complete opposite universe where my dad is a millionaire writer. I wish), and some of my friends as well.

It was apparent that Richard Price had a strong sense of community and that old-style Brooklyn (in his case, Bronx) sense of a close-knit neighborhood. I could see the subtle sadness in his eyes as he answered the questions about LES, and how this communal closeness has gone right out the window.

Tis a shame, but I still love LES just the same.

October 26, 2010   1 Comment

The Met and Me

Call me old fashioned, call me weird, but the feel of a beautiful theater makes me tingle to my bones. There is just something about a well-respected stage that feels regal and intimidating – and Lincoln Center is the holy grail of soul-tingling theaters.

Even the word “theater” seems so inadequate. In no way can what I saw last Thursday night be called simply a “theater.” As I walked up Lincoln Center’s slippery stairs in my soaked, slippery shoes all else floated away. Conversation didn’t matter, the fact that I was severely underdressed didn’t matter, and the fact that I was drenched to the core didn’t matter. I set my eyes on the fountain, romantically lit by the large, elegant buildings surrounding the square. People were everywhere, almost gliding around in their suits and heels. I felt like I should have been hand in hand with Daddy Warbucks.

As I ran inside to keep my hair somewhat dry, I stopped dead in my tracks. I don’t think I’ve been so stupefied in my life – everything was so lovely. The huge marble staircases wrapped around the entrance, engulfing me and all the other opera-goers that night. Once I took my head out of the clouds, I was sitting down, people-watching. At that point I didn’t need to see the opera. What was more interesting, to me at least, were the people. Excited families sneaking pictures, old couples quietly waiting, Macaulay students chatting to each other. Pure human interaction and excitement.

I sat on the edge of my seat like a little kid at their first baseball game. As I watched for the chandeliers to rise (as a very knowledgable opera-goer I know pointed out would happen), I could not contain myself. I watched, transfixed, as the lights dimmed (the most exciting part!). The curtains opened, and I almost jumped in my seat I was so happy.

Call me weird, I love going to shows. There is something about those mysterious curtains, and the nervous chattering, and the lights dimming, that I just just can’t wait to see what’s in store. It probably has something to do with the feeling I get when I’m on the opposite side of the curtain.

The view from my side of the curtain, Thursday, was phenomenal. It was a blur of huge costumes and insane voices. I may have been more excited about the experience than I was the actual performance, but there is no harm in that. The performance was so alien to what I am used to on the stage that it was intriguing – the set up was so totally separate from the theater I know. But in it’s novelty, it became all the more fun.

I only dozed off once, and I am proud of that.

October 19, 2010   No Comments

Caity Conga

When having trouble describing a neighborhood, I look around. I do the Cha-Cha Slide: a slide to the left, then the right, then back. A mental tap-dance on the New York City map is all I need to get me in the right direction.

So when I needed to find a Rite Aid close by the dorm, I shimmied around the Lower East Side until I found it. A few taps to the right is Chinatown, to the left are some projects, with some hip little restaurants and dives in between.

As it turns out, the only Rite Aid on my dance floor was a jive to the left. The art galleries and boutiques gave way to factories and large housing projects. While marching down the blocks I saw a sad little book lying on its side, wet and worn-down, its title face-up for the world to mock.

“The Audacity of Hope, Barack Obama” sighed the dog-eared pages of this melancholy little novel. The sight of the lonely block littered with nothing – no people, or stores – but this book, left a sour taste in my mouth. It made me chuckle at its irony, but overall was a pretty bitter image. I shook my head, took a snapshot, and reluctantly rumba’d on my way.

October 12, 2010   2 Comments

Falling Down the Rabbit Hole

Sitting quietly in the aisle seat, I rifled through the program absentmindedly with mixed expectations. I looked around at all the strangers passing by: some giggling, some shuffling, some yawning, some stoic. I turned to my right to see two boys around my age. “Are you Macaulay too?”

“Yeah.”

…. And that was the extent of that conversation. Apparently they were from Queens, and the rest of their class was scattered throughout the theater. So I sat in silence waiting for the show to end before it even began.

But then the curtains opened, to reveal two dimly lit performers, a man and a woman as far upstage as humanly possible. As the woman crooned a beautiful spanish love song (or what I assumed as such), the man accompanied her on guitar. The buttery, but at times raspy, exotic warbling set the tone for the rest of the night: puzzling, but no doubt beautiful.

Then came a few more ensemble members creating music with their taps, claps, and something resembling a turtle shell. The tapping was phenomenal, but then the show rapidly took a turn for the bizarre.

I appreciated the time and effort it clearly took to master all the segments, but they were so abstract that I believe the only thing I truly could appreciate is the talent itself. Maybe I was tired, maybe I was not critically thinking, but I know for sure I just did not get some of the acts.

The “pauses” were long and many in between, which was not as expected. But, a break was needed to take a second to say to yourself, “WHAT?”

One segment in particular made me question my sanity, but in a good way. The Bill T. Jones/Arnie Zane Dance Company performed an eery duet that just blew me out of the water. It was simple, but mind-boggling. Two dancers hopped, swayed and pirouetted to a cryptic choreography to the tune of an interview with John Cage. The backdrop of sound was sometimes cut off, leaving the dancers to do their work in silence. The heaviness of the piece just struck me, as it’s little intricacies unfolded with each deliberate movement and choice of word.

I left with my feathers ruffled, but in an oddly exhilarating way. It left so many questions, and answered none.The absurd abstractness of it all was, in the end, a great way to spend my evening alone.

October 5, 2010   No Comments

Pro(crepe)ination

“The North side uses more butter, the South side actually uses more oil.”

Wait, what? I looked up from my computer up at my friend Frankie, cooking pan in hand.

“Oh, Italy?” Well, duh. I wasn’t exactly on my A-game, at midnight with a four page paper due in the morning. I dipped my finger absentmindedly in the jar of Nutella I had conveniently moved away from the cook.

“Yeah. Most people think that oil is the biggest ingredient in all Italian foods, but it’s totally not. In the North side, they actually only use butter. I don’t know, it’s something to do with the seasons. But crepes are French, so I don’t even know why it matters.”

I had no idea where they were from, or what they were made of, or why we were really even eating them. By the bottom of the Nutella jar, I had lost an hour and gained only one introductory paragraph to my essay. But, I learned something new. I looked around the kitchen from my white, food stained counter throne, and smiled to myself. And what did I spy but an Irish girl from Brooklyn who knows diddly-squat about cooking; a Russian girl from everywhere whose experience with Italian food stops at spaghetti; an Italian-Puerto Rican girl from the-middle-of-nowhere, Upstate whose cooking preference is primarily easy mac; and an Italian from Staten Island with cooking pan in hand and an endless stream of cooking remedies and anecdotes. All assembled for the common goal: procrastination. And on our path to procrastination, we actually found something interesting.

Also, we found out how FANTASTIC crepes are at one in the morning.

September 28, 2010   3 Comments

ecaF tuobA

“Who are you?” wheezes the caterpillar, high on his mushroom pedestal. He blows smoke rings that engulf me completely, twisting and swirling their foggy tentacles around my thoughts.

I am hungry. I am sober. I am awake. I am counterproductive. I am oversimplistic. I am words. I am thoughts. I am a notion. I am energy. I am happy where I am. I am a yogi. I am sick a lot. I am confusing. I am a tea enthusiast. I am a dramatist. I am an actress. I am a seamstress.
I am my own mix of Buddhism and Christianity that really completely conflicts with how I live my life but I am working on that. I am in love with James Dean and may or may not have a cardboard cutout of him next to my bed at all times.
I watch TCM more than I watch MTV. I have the combined musical tastes of a grandma, a beatnik, a country hick, and some hipsters. I knit. I write. I take pictures. I have carried with me my little-school-girl love for horses and probably won’t ever shed it. I have only one adjective in my vocabulary that I use to describe everything.
“Cute.”
I am a firm believer that everyone and everything in this world has a story to tell and I try my best to listen to and find as many as I can.
I may be many things, but at the end of the day,
I just am.

September 22, 2010   3 Comments

The Bitter Sea

The summer going into junior year of high school, I took up my first job so I could make that cash money flow. Except, the job wasn’t as glamorous as I had imagined. I somehow got a job as a “councelor” at an all-Asian Educational Camp. Or rather, Chinese summer school, starring the one and only non-Asian counselor, ME. I did not speak the language(s), I did not look like anyone they had ever seen before, and I was chosen to govern over a sea of 30-odd six-year-old kids took kindly to me.

Weaving and dodging through my classes, teaching English (and Spanish, that was interesting), Math and Science, I picked up on quite a few cultural differences. I forgot completely about this summer until reading The Bitter Sea, which instantly threw me back in the first paragraph.

Also, it helped me better understand where my students had been coming from, and their home life. I never really understood the strong ties between the family members, and how incredibly different the priorities are in Asian culture than in western.

Despite choppy narrative which may be excused by the author’s foreign nature, the book had a lot to teach me. It was difficult to get through, but I am very glad that I did.

September 21, 2010   No Comments

Good-Old-Brooklyn

So, the other day, I met a man that could only possibly be described as a “flea market, wild west shoot-from-the-hip kind of guy.” He took the words right out of my mouth. His name was Howard Greenberg, a self-made, motivated beyond belief good-old-Brooklyn guy who simply realized what it was worth to follow his passion.

One thing he said jumped out at me, because it was absolutely relevant to something I’ve been worried about lately: “If you mean it, you can make a living out of something you love, instead of something you are supposed to.” Speaking to a group of business school students, I’m surprised that idea wasn’t totally lost upon us all.

It wasn’t. I was captivated from the second he opened his mouth. His friendly, almost neighborly attitude and clear appreciation for his work make his already interesting anecdotes a delight to listen to. I have a habit of taking very special interest in certain people, and have a mental collection of fascinating individuals – and Howard just became one of them. He has so much to offer, and is willing to do so; he has stories that are just waiting to be told, some released through his prints, and others by pure interaction.

I was chock-full of questions to ask. I want to know his story. Of course we caught a glimpse, a summary of his achievements with a few quirky anecdotes in between.

But I still wonder what his photography is like, and what each picture means to him, and how this print and that saturation and this enlargement change the dynamic of this and this and so on. I hope to see him at the gallery soon – after class, I ignored all my friends playfully whispering “loser” and making signs of an L on their foreheads and walked up to meet Mr. Greenberg.

I had a great chat with him, and found out how truly friendly he was. I told him how I was more than eager to intern for him just to be around such an environment as the one he has created for himself and over 100 other artists that he represents. I think it’s going to be one of the greatest choices I will ever make. Regardless, this is not the last I will see of Howard Greenberg.

September 16, 2010   1 Comment

Woodcrock

What is real?

Dandelion Fiction is.

What’s Dandelion Fiction?

I had no idea, but someone in the universe wanted me to find out.

As I stepped off the subway car onto the dingy and dirty Fort Hamilton Parkway station in Brooklyn the other day, I absent-mindedly stared at all the graffitied advertisements that desperately clung to its walls. I paid no mind to most of them, unamused by the artistic improvements made by passersby – the usual mustaches, the blacked-out teeth, the devil horns and obscenities. But then I stopped, and did a double-take; one ad was ripped out, leaving behind a sad little frame with blank paper. On the paper were the words, “Dandelion Fiction is Real.”

So, of course I took a picture and looked it up. Whoever was the campaign designer was genius, all it took to spread the word was a sharpie and a message.

Typing in the words “dandelion fiction”, I got some strange results. But the first two or three were links to music sites, and a myspace for a band by the name.

Dandelion Fiction, as I found out, is a strange, strange band consisting of a man named Daniel F, who proclaims to play “daxophone, electric bass, singing, loops, pencilina, washboard, clackers and whackers, wizard of fuzz, dad’s old classical guitar (painted red with black spongemarks for a reason no one can fathom), etc etc.”

I wish I could say I listened to a few tracks. I couldn’t get through a single one. I sampled a few, but could  not bear to sit through three minutes of Daniel F. singing “of course/off course” on a loop in his Weird-Al Yankovic voice with a backdrop of eery animal screeching, bad clarinet playing and demonic yelling. The words and the anger do not connect or make any sense.

Well, atleast they have some great advertising team.

September 15, 2010   8 Comments